i was
completely
s t r e t c h e d.
broken.
wrecked.
exposed.
loved.
I spent this past weekend on the beautiful beaches of Limón & Puerto Viejo. What was supposed to be a normal, everyday beach trip turned into me being completely broken & wrecked before my God.
I will never be able to fully put into words all that God spoke to me and how broken I truly became.
For 3 days I "vacationed" amongst those considered
"unloveable" & "untouchable".
For 3 days I was completely uncomfortable, but in such a beautiful way.
For 3 days I experienced love.
Love from a f a r—through what I saw around me.
& through each my God spoke.
I saw houses.
old.
torn.
wooden.
small.
leaves.
simple.
dirt.
fabric.
tin.
holes.
exposed.
ripped.
broken.
houses considered homes.
I saw people.
young.
old.
content.
dirty.
grateful.
"unloveable"
impoverished.
exposed.
tattered.
"untouchable"
bare-feet.
people who are beautiful.
I saw the ocean.
raw.
unhindered.
exposed.
free.
open.
creative.
ocean imitating love.
For 3 days I was neighbors with those considered
"unloveable" & "untouchable"
I was neighbors to houses that most would consider as shacks.
I was neighbors with love.
love at its finest.
My neighbors for those 3 days don't see dirt & wood.
or bare-feet & tattered clothing.
They see family.
life.
beauty.
contentment.
joy.
love.
But more than any of that-
they love.
Here.
in Costa Rica.
love is understood in such a pure way.
in such an unhindered way.
everyone loves with their entire heart.
not just a piece.
they fully understand how special love is.
love isn't taken for granted.
it's thoroughly appreciated.
it's fully given.
even to a complete stranger.
a stranger, just like me.
I have been called to love. I have been called to step out of [my] ways & completely step into {His}—regardless of what that may mean. I long to be so in tune with the very heartbeat of my God that I love in a way that allows my spirit to rise above my flesh. I long to love even if it means sleeping on a dirt covered street. living amongst the broken & poor. eating only grain. wearing tattered bits of clothing. being bare-foot. His love is greater than any of that. I long & yearn to love as my God loves. Allowing nothing to stand in my way from loving as He does. Just as the ocean is raw & exposed to anyone & everything I long to love with a love so raw & exposed. I long to love freely. Allowing myself to genuinely love anyone and everyone just as my God does. I long to love holding back nothing.
I long to love like the "unloveables" & "untouchables" love.
like my God loves.
I truly experienced love at its finest & not through a single word, but through what I saw. I saw the people around me love in a way that broke me. In a way that causes them to look past old wooden & dirt houses & see nothing but a home full of love. In a way that causes them to look past what they do not have & see what they can give to those around them.
through broken & tattered houses.
dirty & impoverished people.
a raw & open ocean.
my God spoke
& i became broken.
so broken that I became fully exposed before my God.
so exposed that I can't help but want to love like my God loves.
